So close!!

Today after the gym, I weighed in at 200.2!!! SOOOO close to breaking that milestone! YAY. It has literally been almost 6 years since I've been below 200. And while that still means I have a long way to go, it is also exciting to be on the other side of that line. And I am determined to get there (and stay there). I would love to be comfortable in a bikini next summer and I have faith that I can do it. Minus 41 pounds since January, and counting! 

What is new...

Well, for starters, I have found a renewed energy for reaching my weight loss goals. All I have to say is yay for technology and deadlines (especially the one telling me I only have two months before I need to order my dress!)! I have swam laps every day this week and hope to do the same next week (thank you mom for having a pool)! 

For those who follow, I have not yet heard back from Kaiser, they keep saying "very soon" but it looks like they are still weighing their options. So, i continue to wait (not so patiently, but I am trying). 

Also, it looks like I'll be getting a new blog design soon! Thanks to Creative Creations by Cristin who has so generously volunteered her skills and abilities to make me a beautiful blog! I can't even tell you how excited I am to see it! :) 

That is all I have for now. Thanks again for checking in and I will talk with you soon!

Amy :) 

To all the moms, I need your thoughts!!

Let me preface this posting with a heartfelt disclaimer: I do not mean anything negative by what I say or the questions I ask. I am not questioning your decisions or judging you for them. I am merely expressing how my mind works and hoping to get some other opinions/points of view. I hope you all can help (if you are still out there since I've been absent). 

Here it goes: I have never really been the motherly type. Truly, if you knew me, you would know this to be true. I do not have that natural nurturing ability, lack in sympathy and imagination, and wanted to be a grown up for as long as I can remember. Even as a child I got better along with adults than other kids my age. I think this is one large reason I've never had a desire to have children of my own. I really just don't get them. I can't relate to their imaginary world as mine is based in reality and logic (something children typically lack). But as I am growing up and now planning a future with Mr. Sir, the topic of children has come up. My stance previous to Tom had always been "absolutely not, no way I am ever having kids. They are expensive (in every sense of the word) and offer very little return. Worst investment ever. No". Well, as many had told me before, this opinion started shifting as I could see my future with Tom becoming a reality. 

However, I still can list MANY more reasons not to have children than to have them. But I think I must be missing a piece of the puzzle or a point in the argument, because most people have kids and seem to love them. I know I have a number of mother readers out there, I'm hoping you can help enlighten me. I know Tom has a desire for children but is okay with not having them. Anyway, before we make final decisions I would like all sides to the argument/coin/insert euphemism here. 

I hope you can help. Thank you. :)

The Waiting Game...

Boy, is it killer! I think waiting to hear back how I did in the interview is harder and more nerve-racking for me than the interviews! Geez. I just hope and pray they get back to me quickly, regardless of the result. That way I can make a plan on how I'm either going to transition....or not. I do think the interview went well. Not quite as perfectly as the first (but then again that could just be the difference between talking to like-minded analysts and administrators). But, I do think I have a good chance so now I will just have to wait and hope. 

In the meantime I will continue finding things to occupy my time. Like Bejeweled, Family Feud, and cleaning :D Oh! and my beloved coupon cutting. :D